Valentine's day is a commercialized mess. But it can be a little bit fun. And I think it would be a better surprise than a bunch of bats and skeletons in your office.
They each do have a different vibe to them. Valentine's and Halloween.
[There's a pause before he shares the rest.] I'm not much for holidays now, but as a little kid, Valentine's was on the rotation. [It is indeed a commercialized mess, like every holiday, but Kaz can't hate the few memories he has of his father and Jordie. It's a good memory.] It was really just homemade things, but it wasn't the worst experience.
With admiration only, let no food or drink go to waste.
[He follows after her into her kitchen, moving to her side to wait for his chance to rinse out the glass. It's been a very long time since he last sat down to eat and drink without either rushing or interspersing it with work. It's been even longer since he shared a bed, and never with someone who wasn't family. There's a part of him that wonders what it might be like now, a part that craves crossing the bridge back to fully stand in the land of the living. Another part, the part that knows how restless his sleep is, that knows if he lets her help means relinquishing some control, that fills him with nerves.
He's faced down death and even this sliver of intimacy is terrifying.
If he says no though, he can't pretend he isn't a coward. Not any longer after his flaws have been pointed out to him by his friends.]
Maybe try it. Though you might want to kick me out. I dunno if I snore.
[She rinses her glass and then tips the bottle to her lips to finish it off.
Stella is aware that what she is suggesting is a huge decision for him, which is why she doesn't want to pressure him at all. She will do everything she can to provide an accommodating space for him to move at whatever pace he needs to.
And she has all the time in the world for that progress.]
If you do, I'll send you to the sofa.
[It also gives him an out if he feels he needs it. The sofa is there, with a throw blanket and everything.]
[She hasn't pressured him at all, merely left a window open. An offer on the table, to speak more in his terms. And while it makes him nervous, while he can't plan ten steps ahead right now, he takes it. An act without a net, but not without contingencies she doesn't mind helping put into place.
He rinses off his glass after her, wiping his hands on his pants and gives a little nod. He licks his lips, a sign he's steeling himself, but the nod is sure.]
After you. I don't know which side of the bed you prefer.
[She nods. In a long life you meet all sorts of people with all sorts of trauma. Stella usually has a good grasp on when she can push someone just a little to try and help. This seems like a good opportunity. It's a little trust exercise that he is able to leave at any time.
She leads him to her bedroom, she is already dressed comfortably enough. She hops up onto the left side and starts arranging her decorative pillows down the middle.]
This reminds me of building pillow forts.
[She's set up a neat little wall dividing the bed in half. Even split it is larger than the single one in his office.]
[He watches in a little amusement at the pile of pillows on her bed that are neatly arranged to provide a comfortable barrier. It’s nice to talk right now to focus on something other than his nerves.] Who did you build pillow forts with? Your human family?
[It doesn’t escape his attention that her bed is infinitely nicer than his. He still has the same bed he’s had since the secondhand furniture was shoved into the Slat years ago, and it’s the same pillow he’s had, too. Singular. Kaz spares no effort or money on his own comfort. With that said, he can still notice it, and as he cautiously sits on the edge of the bed, the cushions give way without a groan and spring felt beneath him.] You’re spoiling me, you know.
I can't say that assessment is wrong. Though perhaps not always limited to literal children.
[Has Kaz ever smacked Jesper with a sofa pillow or vice versa? Yes. There's really no excuse for it like he could with Jordie. They're just immature like that sometimes when it's just their inner circle.]
If you fold it in half it's less flat. Perfectly still usable.
[He leans his cane against her bedside table, then slowly lowers himself to lie on his back on the right side of her bed.]
Sometimes I sit down and someone sits beside me and they say something that requires a targeted pillow redirect.
[He says it very professionally, to what amounts as a pillow fight. Though it normally is more of a short smack each way than a long battle.
It is a little strange, lying in bed with someone. Not bad, but odd, and his fingers twist together as they rest over his stomach. His fingers like to keep busy, always. Shadows play against her ceiling, soft in shades of black and gray from the moonlight. He smiles a little at her threat.]
I could always retaliate with your office at the university, you know.
[Kaz remains lying on his back, but it’s mostly because that’s the most comfortable position with his leg. Lying on his side for too long makes it ache. Her voice carries well enough for him to hear her though, even if his own is as usual raspy in return.]
I do know where you live, and should I take that as an open invitation to return? Because I can pick a window lock, you know.
[He tilts his head to look at the wall of pillows where she lays on the other side.]
I can smell your shampoo on your pillows.
[He knows what it smells like now, thanks to having used it in her shower.]
[It’s nice to hear that he’s welcome. She’s already told him, but sometimes, it’s nice to hear more than once. He’ll definitely bring food and wine. Kaz likes to take care of people, and providing them with basic needs being met is one of them. It’s much easier for him to show than to tell.]
You still have a lot of food in the Barrel to try. Some of it’s really well made. I’ll make sure your fridge has some when I visit. And yes, I could pick the door’s lock. When I’m not trying to be more covert.
[He rubs his cheek a little against the soft pillowcase. His voice is slowing down a little due to tiredness.] It is a nice smell. Though I can’t quite place it.
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Date: 2023-10-07 07:26 pm (UTC)I can see you enjoying Valentine's Day.
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Date: 2023-10-07 07:29 pm (UTC)Valentine's day is a commercialized mess. But it can be a little bit fun. And I think it would be a better surprise than a bunch of bats and skeletons in your office.
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Date: 2023-10-07 07:43 pm (UTC)[There's a pause before he shares the rest.] I'm not much for holidays now, but as a little kid, Valentine's was on the rotation. [It is indeed a commercialized mess, like every holiday, but Kaz can't hate the few memories he has of his father and Jordie. It's a good memory.] It was really just homemade things, but it wasn't the worst experience.
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Date: 2023-10-07 07:56 pm (UTC)[With the dark clothes and crow cane.]
Holidays lose something as an adult. I used to love the summer Solstace, we would be up until late, dancing and drinking. It was wonderful.
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:02 pm (UTC)[He finishes up the wine in his glass as well.]
I suppose harvest festivals now don't have quite the same appeal.
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:08 pm (UTC)No, harvest festivals are all pumpkin spice and apple picking now.
[She stretches and yawns.]
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:11 pm (UTC)Are you not tired?
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:23 pm (UTC)[He shifts to the end of his seat, leaning forward to grasp one of the glasses.]
Maybe a little. I don't know that I can even tell any longer.
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:25 pm (UTC)[She grabs the other glass and the bottle, she's still giving a bit of a smile and a tease]
You are welcome to try and sleep, I'll make a wall of pillow.
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:35 pm (UTC)[He follows after her into her kitchen, moving to her side to wait for his chance to rinse out the glass. It's been a very long time since he last sat down to eat and drink without either rushing or interspersing it with work. It's been even longer since he shared a bed, and never with someone who wasn't family. There's a part of him that wonders what it might be like now, a part that craves crossing the bridge back to fully stand in the land of the living. Another part, the part that knows how restless his sleep is, that knows if he lets her help means relinquishing some control, that fills him with nerves.
He's faced down death and even this sliver of intimacy is terrifying.
If he says no though, he can't pretend he isn't a coward. Not any longer after his flaws have been pointed out to him by his friends.]
Maybe try it. Though you might want to kick me out. I dunno if I snore.
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:39 pm (UTC)[She rinses her glass and then tips the bottle to her lips to finish it off.
Stella is aware that what she is suggesting is a huge decision for him, which is why she doesn't want to pressure him at all. She will do everything she can to provide an accommodating space for him to move at whatever pace he needs to.
And she has all the time in the world for that progress.]
If you do, I'll send you to the sofa.
[It also gives him an out if he feels he needs it. The sofa is there, with a throw blanket and everything.]
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:46 pm (UTC)[She hasn't pressured him at all, merely left a window open. An offer on the table, to speak more in his terms. And while it makes him nervous, while he can't plan ten steps ahead right now, he takes it. An act without a net, but not without contingencies she doesn't mind helping put into place.
He rinses off his glass after her, wiping his hands on his pants and gives a little nod. He licks his lips, a sign he's steeling himself, but the nod is sure.]
After you. I don't know which side of the bed you prefer.
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Date: 2023-10-07 08:59 pm (UTC)She leads him to her bedroom, she is already dressed comfortably enough. She hops up onto the left side and starts arranging her decorative pillows down the middle.]
This reminds me of building pillow forts.
[She's set up a neat little wall dividing the bed in half. Even split it is larger than the single one in his office.]
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Date: 2023-10-07 09:16 pm (UTC)[It doesn’t escape his attention that her bed is infinitely nicer than his. He still has the same bed he’s had since the secondhand furniture was shoved into the Slat years ago, and it’s the same pillow he’s had, too. Singular. Kaz spares no effort or money on his own comfort. With that said, he can still notice it, and as he cautiously sits on the edge of the bed, the cushions give way without a groan and spring felt beneath him.] You’re spoiling me, you know.
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Date: 2023-10-07 09:26 pm (UTC)[They are fond memories of hers, a lot of her childhood was quite good.
Most of her furniture is second hand, but her bed and her shower were things she splurged on. They are places of comfort and calm for her.]
Maybe that's been my plan all along. That and to convince you that maybe you need a pillow that isn't as old as you.
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Date: 2023-10-07 09:39 pm (UTC)[Has Kaz ever smacked Jesper with a sofa pillow or vice versa? Yes. There's really no excuse for it like he could with Jordie. They're just immature like that sometimes when it's just their inner circle.]
If you fold it in half it's less flat. Perfectly still usable.
[He leans his cane against her bedside table, then slowly lowers himself to lie on his back on the right side of her bed.]
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Date: 2023-10-07 09:42 pm (UTC)[She tucks herself under her blankets and lats down. It feels odd to have someone close but feeling far away.]
Well, now I know what I'm leaving in your office. A real pillow and a bunch of little hearts.
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Date: 2023-10-07 09:50 pm (UTC)[He says it very professionally, to what amounts as a pillow fight. Though it normally is more of a short smack each way than a long battle.
It is a little strange, lying in bed with someone. Not bad, but odd, and his fingers twist together as they rest over his stomach. His fingers like to keep busy, always. Shadows play against her ceiling, soft in shades of black and gray from the moonlight. He smiles a little at her threat.]
I could always retaliate with your office at the university, you know.
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Date: 2023-10-07 09:56 pm (UTC)[She has made herself comfortable, laying on her side facing him to be able to hear what he says better.
It is odd, but easier than she expected. After spending a whole evening together, this really does just feel like a sleepover.]
You also know where I live. But then I'd retaliate. And there would be a full on war of small thoughtful gifts.
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Date: 2023-10-07 10:14 pm (UTC)I do know where you live, and should I take that as an open invitation to return? Because I can pick a window lock, you know.
[He tilts his head to look at the wall of pillows where she lays on the other side.]
I can smell your shampoo on your pillows.
[He knows what it smells like now, thanks to having used it in her shower.]
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Date: 2023-10-07 10:20 pm (UTC)[She never turns down a dinner. She can see the tip of his head as it turns towards her.]
Is that good? I rather like the smell of it.
They're so sweet, OMG. <3
Date: 2023-10-07 10:33 pm (UTC)You still have a lot of food in the Barrel to try. Some of it’s really well made. I’ll make sure your fridge has some when I visit. And yes, I could pick the door’s lock. When I’m not trying to be more covert.
[He rubs his cheek a little against the soft pillowcase. His voice is slowing down a little due to tiredness.] It is a nice smell. Though I can’t quite place it.
I know! I love them
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